all i need is a simple lift

Fat Ass, Velen, Ken, QY, Jeff
(Cheeky team members, Cheeky manager)

Ken ~ Sheena ~ TW

Jeff ^ Ken ^ Janice ^ QY

SP Team
(Jeff, QY,Ken,Janice)

Cheeky TW, Ken, Sheena Poh Leng, Flying Velen

all i need is a simple lift

Actualli i put up a blog yest (Death Library) but was deleted after up for less den 10mins ... think i will post it up after i noe wat to type for the ending ...

I read one of ur blogs (i only got a few blogs webby to visit) ... i oso got the same feeling , suddenly realised tt i been in tis world for 23yrs++, n yet most of things i wanted to complete was far frm me, Im Jus living in an empty shell...

Currently working in a company tt i planned to leave mths ago (since I joined), 'Planning' to get out of there. Everytimes when out when my frz, somehow we would talk abt the life, job etc... "how come u can tahan for so long with quite a low pay", " when r u gonna change ur job?", "wah, ur still in the company ar, thot u said u wanna change it long ago..." Thinking of it, im unable to complete most of the things i wanted is bcos of ME .... im too soft, too depending on others ... Afraid to make the move till i feel it safe ... I always blame things ard me, for not getting a better salary job, for not able to complete my plans according to my schedule ... So wat ?!!! im still doing nth, blogging here... looking aimlessly at my 'killer wife' typing all tis words to tell u how boring my life is etc.... Still leading tis incomplete life, how long can i go?!!!

Most of my frz oso attached/ getting married/ got babies/enjoying their life due to their gd pay ... One of my Brother ask me, "Ken, when r u gonna get a gf ??? Dont tell me, ur a gay... Ur 24 tis yr liao, still don plan to settle down meh ...etc"

How i wish i could say to him tt is not tt i don wanna settle down, i oso wish to get a gf soon n enjoy those loving times, like most of u guys do .... But wat makes u think is so easy for me ?!! Is not tt im rich/ im handsome/ im gd talking wif ladies .... One thing for sure i noe abt myself, im too defensive but I oso don understand y, im building a strong wall against pple since young ... i hardly open up to pple i don noe well, i don go ard knowing new girls or keep talking to someone i jus know, so how m i able to get attached (* don even think abt my work place, im the youngest n the second youngest is 11yrs older den me.)

When we have gathering with frz, most of the time im a slient listener, hardly join in the conversation cause i donnoe wat to say n i will keep on thinking wat to say... Think i shd go attend those "Try to talk more" workshops, lolx
(n pls for those who always try to make happiness out of pple sober[don think anyone of u here], don come too near to me n cos u might not know wat i will do to u if u realli pissed me off, thanks)

Believe me or not, i oso tried to open the door, but still things happen to seal it up ... Im kinda tired, hating myself to b so weak ... Think i shd stop here, anyway this is my longest wordest blog .... wahahaa

all i need is a simple lift

this is one of the figures, i wanted to get hahaaa .... n she actualli bought it for me (shd get me a expensive wan lor, i wan Evangalion - Movie Realization version of EVA-01) if not Saber in Black Suit oso can wahahaa ... but still thanks alot, i appreciate this gift wahahaa ...

Small intro for tis figure, actually i oso donnoe y there's tis lion suit version oso... but in FSN manga ,she's a spirit warrior of King Arthur, being summoned by a craftor (who donnoe his strength) n she become his protector due to some holy war treaty ...

all i need is a simple lift